14th Chapter
As you slowly come the next morning to you, you realize at once that this is exactly the way as you want from now wake up each morning.
Clemens pushed very close to you, one of your arms wrapped tightly around his body and his head buried in your neck flexion. Exactly so and not otherwise.
You feel at this moment so well that you only sometimes do not realize that you're not waking up by itself. The ringing of the alarm clock is you only become aware of a few moments later, when Clemens groaned tortured further buries his face in your neck flexion.
"Get out of the wretched thing finally, please ..." mutters Clemens finally very close to your neck to make up his warm breath tickle softly, "... my head roars so enough already ... "
Oh yes. Exactly. There was something. You remember only dimly, are still a bit drowsy, but the memory is slowly getting clearer.
Clemens yesterday was not really sober, as he stood in front of your door. And so ill, as you just looks more or less - since the eyes he'll still not really - he seems to remember now quite formidable.
somewhere Would not have been fair if Clemens would have been spared from the hangover, find thou
Nevertheless Clemens you just do at least a little bit tired and you stretch up piece to Clemens' Please comply with the ringing of your alarm clock and finally to an end.
Relieved sighs on Clemens finally, when the noise finally stops. Snuggle up to something close to you - what hunts you turn a shiver through the body. A pleasant one.
almost too comfortable, easy to see how you have to shame.
draw Discreetly you the blanket, which has slipped down the clock as you have identified, again slightly higher. Clemens needs to do now do not really notice what is the effect his mere presence in your bed been up to.
At least not right now. Not until you two have not you talk properly. Finally all that the last few days has happened between you, have been clarified.
And maybe you should talk sometimes about the subject Boro. And what exactly Clemens in relation to Tim intends to do now.
Even if you Clemens' record, just before you are both asleep, somewhere has made hope. Hope that Boro is one written off for good. And you may finally get the chance to try to get for so long.
And until you have talked at length while Clemens is a great temptation for you - but still a temptation to resist the will you. Do you take you now anyway fixed before the first time.
"Your alarm clock sounds really really horrible ..." mumbles Clemens finally sometime after it has been quiet for some time between the two of you, softly, "... in future I will be different here but please wake of you ..."
You hear that Clemens at this Set grins softly, rather than that you see it. You know it easy.
And then you see all your beautiful intentions of restraint and resisting temptations to go down the drain. Only through this one little sentence.
You do not, however, whether Clemens so clear is what he has just said. It would not necessarily surprise you if he would speak in its current state, therefore, simply something to be aware of the importance of his words correctly.
The butterflies in your stomach but do not interfere with these legitimate doubts in the slightest. The flutter again too excited about, are already running almost amok.
And do you convince them with unfair means that you now simply need to prevent only to kiss Clemens - and you know the best will not, as now you shall come against it.
you that Clemens is still so damn close, makes the whole situation and not necessarily easier for you. You begin to buy on your lower lip around.
it finally holds some point just not enough. Slip slightly from Clemens. Only a few inches. Only to the extent that it no longer is directly next to each other. You Clemens' body heat can not perceive so clearly.
And you can finally think clearly. At least a little clearer. You are looking for Clemens' views.
Clemens sees you easily irritated, a little insecure. Not the look you're used to from him. But maybe not the look that is up to the Clemens dismissed during the last few months and over again.
Because he was different. Always friendly, always with a smile on my face, no matter what exactly you did it this time invited again. But since he was also always very determined. Has embarked on nothing, on any of your persuasion, no matter how tempting offer.
was completely convinced of what he to you has said. If one has seen him clearly. And he has of you can not really bring in the least from the concept.
And that look - the way it looks at Clemens at this moment is so completely different.
almost shy, reserved. Questioning. All this and much more without that you could describe what you can still read everything in sight of the other.
This view is you have placed on one side really a thousand times rather than an expression of regret, the Clemens the last few months again and again when he one your offer is rejected.
And yet it is not really what did you secretly want.
for this is still too much uncertainty in his eyes. Too much reflection. Too much indecision.
"Do you know what the triggers for me, if you say something to me?" You ask softly, finally one day after her for a while you just have seen in the eyes.
Without saying a word. Until you no longer stand it have. This silence. This nerve-wracking silence.
And Clemens, who you is still so damn close. So close that you need only stretch out your hand to reach it. to touch him.
intruder see you now, but just to Clemens. Clemens, who does not smile anymore. Your eye contact is broken. Staring at the ceiling when he would find the answer you were demanded of him.
follows a brief shake of the head, the soft feather pillows rustling in Clemens' mind when he denies your question.
then again you look. Still does not look as if it were completely safe.
"No, I do not know ...," Clemens said finally with a little firmer voice, "... but ... I think I would know it like ..." added he added. Quiet - sound at the end not as convinced as at the beginning of the sentence.
The fact you put a little prick, somehow. You judge now on, so that you sit on the bed. Think Clemens' look to your firm, as this is also slowly touches down.
For a brief moment his eyes zukneift and massaging with a soft groan goes over the temples. Obviously struggling with severe headaches.
the moment, keep your pity for him, but within limits.
"You think? Clemens, that's not enough to me, you know? I ... I ... ah damn, it's probably not a big secret ... but ... I feel for so long something for you. I've been trying so long to finally get a chance with you. A fair chance ... and ... then Boro again surfaced ... and now ... it's just not enough if you just think you want to try it with us ... somehow ... "you from breaking, see Clemens already almost again desperately.
The has since moved his legs close to the body looks up at her sadly. You do not know if Clemens understands what you want to tell him.
"Basti, what exactly do you mean? What do you want to hear from me then? I will not lie to you, I never wanted. And I, if I now say that it will definitely work out with us would ... "sounds Clemens no longer as quiet as just straight.
"Damn, Clemens ... Maybe ... maybe I want from you but only once - and possibly even when sober - to hear that you ever really have feelings for me ... "erwiderst you finally quiet.
see Clemens back on. The look up now really shocked.
stretches out his hand and reaches for your order. It persists. But this simple touch electrified up again. Draws you completely into Clemens' command.
"That ... that you think now is not really serious, right? Man, Basti ... I ... " Clemens shook his head, does not seem to know how to talk further, "... sometimes, I'm really a really insensitive Trample ... but ... I would have thought yesterday when I appeared with you ... that you at least that would be clear. I ... I like you, Basti. I like you even damn much, okay? So much so that I can imagine a relationship with you. Even so much that I'm sure I could be happier with you than I ever was with Tim ... "
" And why hesitate then you still? Why do you do not get out just what you fancy? If you supposedly what I feel - if you like me so much, "you interrupt Clemens pretty testy - even notice that you are not necessarily fair at the moment.
Are currently only grade once again simply confused. Clemens still feel somewhat alienated.
And still do not know what you should think about the matter.
Clemens was about to answer - but before he comes to say something, suddenly heard your doorbell.
You frown. Early in the morning you get really usually do not visit. is present, especially not on a day in the training.
it rings again. Longer this time
silent cursing you jump up, throw Clemens one last look before you leave the bedroom. You go to the apartment door, it breaks.
And your mood reaches absolute zero this morning.
Boro in front of you. And your stunned gaze replied with a mixture of insolence and aversion.
The brief flash of discomfort in his eyes you will not also hidden Gen.
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