17th Chapter
When you at training ground arrive, you feel even more shit over and even that is an understatement.
Have far too little sleep, still do not know what is with you now and Clemens - and for breakfast you had finally nothing in the house. Perfect quasi-shitty.
And the day had started so well ...
In the parking lot you see around you and you realize with a mixture of relief and slight concern that Clemens' car nor is not at its usual place. And you yourself are already extra set off late to stay not too long in the cabin.
confirmed fact, your assumption then, as you enter the crew cabin.
Clemens is not there yet - and there are only a few of your colleagues in the locker room, most are probably already out on the training ground and run their warm-up laps.
Aaron and Mark in a corner and talk with a grin. Peter stands before the mirror and directed his hair. That is what concerns the almost as vain as Clemens.
The three do not take great notice of you when you enter the room nod to you briefly. You are happy that nobody is really aware of you. Would Per Torsten or in space, then you would have already the first unpleasant questions in the neck, there you are you pretty sure.
Have finally a mirror at home. And know that you look like anything but fit.
quickly pull you up now therefore, try to make you not to worry too much about Clemens. It is best not to think about him or about why he probably still is not here.
still can not prevent you cross-eyed again and again toward the door.
But nothing is happening. Clemens arrives and does not, even when you're finally finished and moved aside the dressing room from you now completely empty.
Before you even still come too late, you decide to follow your teammates. In trouble with Thomas today you can really do without that.
And Clemens will still show up already, as are you sure. So more or less, anyway.
arrived at the training ground and immediately you start trying to run your compulsory rounds. Catch you a brief admonition of Schaaf a glance - but are probably still remained in the frame, because you will not quote him.
A few of your fellow man sheep you submit to one or another surprised look. Is not necessarily your style, show up at the last minute.
Today cares However, the up really not the least bit. Just run your stubborn rounds on and on and on. Put no value on that someone is with you and show the probably quite significantly.
any event, any attempt to unlock the other, to you and start a conversation with you. See also alarmed when Tony and up By now but clearly curious and probably a little bit.
You also notice that the two just like you always anxious look towards the players' tunnel. Clemens is still not there.
Which means that he has re-emerged late, but clearly just too late. Far too late, even, that the next moment Thomas' whistle sounds and you gather around him.
Just when you in the throng that has been formed around the coach, you come to a stop, you see him. Clemens comes out of the cabin.
downright creeps in your direction. With bowed head. And you see him quite clearly states that he must bring himself again to every single step. You look to Thomas.
He looks less than enthusiastic from. With an expressionless face, he stands there, eyes every step of Clemens, which plays slowly for you. And even if Thomas is one of the people whose face you will find very hard to read, the view clearly bodes no good for Clemens.
This will be trouble. Especially because neither Clemens nor particularly motivated to look fit. Unlike him, you are in any case, the image of the flourishing life. So much is good.
Clemens is still damn pale, the dark circles under his eyes are no better become, has been missing for Clemens out of your apartment. Yet not even shine his hair as usual.
The rays, which otherwise normally accessible Clemens sprayed at the beginning of the training is missing, somehow simple. Or at least so far attenuated that it is hardly noticeable anymore.
And yet your heart beats faster at the sight of him clearly. Have to remember that you in a few hours will probably talk at length.
And that you definitely want to make sure that Clemens never again looks as if he for training is displayed. You realize that the entire team Clemens' performance has been noticed and the silence that prevails in the group, is already almost spooky.
Clemens still looks not occur when he finally arrives at last with you. Lined up in silence between Sebastian - a and Philip - Prödl. Does either in the direction of Thomas - yet he says your in-depth look.
What you but put a little prick.
The next moment, and for a small, clear break begins Thomas to speak at last. Clemens not mentioned for now. You are unsure, however, fairly certain that this will not remain so.
Thomas briefly explained the current program, then sends you to stretch.
Gets Clemens back. Several pitying glances thrown at Clemens' direction. Also you he sorry, he is now ahead of Thomas and apparently listening to a dressing gets its best.
Indeed, Clemens always seems to collapse in on itself, the longer persuades Thomas to him. He nods a few times, intimidated and guilty. Pull your shoulders together.
So Thomas finally dismisses him, Clemens finally formally sprints like this, takes his warm-up rounds or less in a hurry. Without looking left or right. Seemingly.
For you have noticed the quick look in your direction this time quite clearly.
Even though Clemens has looked the same then again, when you looked back at him. And you so not had the chance to appreciate the view really. Sorry.
"Well, now out with it, Basti - what is going on with Clemens? Why does he look like eaten backwards? And you - by the way - not much better, "tearing up a voice now from your thoughts.
By standing behind you.
looks up questioningly to - and does not really look as he would get rid of you just now.
If you but right now actually completely no matter how just looks Per.
"Ask him yourself ..." you tell him so just shrug and then puts you in motion.
Closes on to Mesut, who already looks up all the time so strange. And hope that at least the first time is not a stupid questions.
* * *
The training was exhausting. Mainly because you sleep on today is not really long have. And the effect with you always.
Nevertheless, the individual exercises to you somehow passed by without you really noticed it. Have in mind before most of the time with what would happen after the end of the training.
are And glad that Mesut was there. Who tells you the exercises again, if it was necessary. And the biggest difficulty has been to distract you and make sure that you are not constantly in Clemens' direction have been staring.
Thewas however just as little in the matter as you yourself has largely adhered to per - and has been one or the other is still evil eye of Thomas. Because he has once again distracted and sometimes fairly unhappy acts on the field.
far too easy to trick has made. And so obviously his head was not with the matter.
You make up for the first time just sink to the cabin Bank, breathe a few deep breaths and take a few deep breaths from your water bottle before you yourself slowly undress to shower.
Can you let God be With time on it. Because Clemens will not show up so quickly here. Of course, has Schaaf aufgebrummt penalty laps get. The first time he now have to work off.
What gives you the opportunity to finally back completely relaxed and without that you have all the time about making sure that your eyes at the wrong moment to walk the wrong place to shower to.
Is'd say nice change, find du
And one which you should absolutely take advantage of times. So you can you really a lot of time and when you come out of the shower, really only a handful of your teammates are there.
Mesut for example, who seems to have been waiting for you.
"Well then, old age - I wish you the same amount of luck or whatever ..." he mutters knows, apparently not quite know how to deal with you after then you give him some time but everything you told and you have kept him from evil Clemens during training game trimming, "... and if there is something I can call me at any time, you know, yes ..."
nod You smile softly. Is nice to know that Mesut is there for you. Although he will not always understand.
"Well then, take care ... I'm off times ..." adopted Mesut you listen to, and certainly not correct, nod only once deflected in the direction of your best friend Clemens than now enters the room.
completely sweaty. And the unnaturally red cheeks can only be more clearly how pale Clemens really is. His gaze wanders up just short and you can do it again not to interpret Clemens expression.
While Clemens makes his way to the shower, you take on your own clothes. The cabin, meanwhile, more and more empty.
And in the end you sit all alone on the bank booth and wait until Clemens finally comes out of the shower. This time you sit down as a precaution, however, so that you are first to act in an emergency Car door'd be.
Just in case that Clemens should return it to decide that is not the perfect time to talk to you now.
And will you allow this time really not the best of intentions.
Finally, it was not long until Clemens comes back from the shower. With a towel wrapped around his waist, he enters the cabin, looking at you directly.
strange thought. Uncertain. Chewing on his Lower lip around.
remains And finally stand before you. See you still ongoing.
You try not to distract too much from the fact that Clemens here practically naked in front of you. And you still just look. Without saying anything.
"Basti ... I want ... I just ... before ... I just want to know. You ... yesterday on the phone that sounded so ... you want me but do not just get into bed, right? I ... I'm just afraid, dass .. that again ... " Clemens finally stammers out, then stops.
You can follow him after a few seconds. Clemens look small at first stunned to. Then jump on - what can you soft Clemens back one step.
"That ... that ... are you think such a damned idiot, Clemens ... I do not now ... yes," explain to you disbelieve Clemens are shouting at almost - but can not object to do because you have breached this question simply.
Clemens Because you never have given a reason for thinking so little of you.
"... Damn it, Clemens. I ... I know you drink your damn coffee with lots of milk but without sugar. I know you before every match until the left and then put on the right shoe, even though you're not really a superstitious person. I know you prefer rice than pasta or potatoes. And that such a streak that sometimes affects you in the forehead, up regularly drives you crazy if they do not really is ... ", count on you eventually make a step toward Clemens," ... And you really think that I would be interested in anything of that shit just somehow if I only you would want to bed? Clemens, you're really just ... "
Outraged, you shake your head, to see Clemens in anger sparkling eyes.
"Oh, you know what, forget it ... I piss off now, to something I'm really not in the mood ... ", you declare firmly, pack your bag and you are immediately also on the way towards parking. by
storms Boro, as expected, the already almost on the wall opposite the cabin door leans.
going to appreciate it without even looking at you by him.
"You know what - so I am beginning to think really, you two have somehow deserved it ..." Are you turning up eventually yet again to Boro to.
The only confused looks up to you. And before Tim even something can respond to your words, you're already disappeared around the next corner.
And a few seconds later on the way home.
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