13th Chapter
You Clemens sent the first time under the shower. When his stomach has calmed down and he has not looked as if he would break the same, of course.
And after you have dug it out of your bathroom cabinet ne toothbrush out and he has his teeth cleaned.
Are you sure he will do the warm water well now. And it might help the process of becoming something more clearly. Helps a shower while in any case all the time.
And you certainly can not hurt it to have a few minutes rest. Without Clemens nearby.
up because physical proximity to Clemens just always seemingly crazy. And up again and again brings almost as much to throw all your good intentions overboard.
Today, almost worse than usual.
Slowly you shuffle in your bedroom, looking in your closet for clothes for Clemens. Can not deny that you like the idea that Clemens will now wear the same then your clothes.
you hear the rushing water of the shower, can not help you now imagine Clemens at this moment. Even if you sense he is already naked and have seen often enough in the shower, the idea of Clemens under your shower is there still something else.
And yes - definitely an idea to which you could get used to very good. Still.
Even if you know yourself that you really should not think such a thing. Not just now, when Clemens gave you confessed a few hours only that he Boro was in bed.
is drunk And then, emerged in the middle of the night and not just with a better excuse on the lips in your apartment. Somehow you still can not believe it right that Clemens is actually here.
here with you.
Whatever has to mean it all now - at least it proves somehow I suppose, that you're not Clemens could not care less. He's finally come to you.
And not staying with Boro. Although you probably do not even necessarily the should overestimate.
Damn, this brooding makes you really crazy. Not knowing what is actually going on - what exactly is going on in Clemens and how you should interpret the whole situation is really unbearable. Spontaneously
you finally grab a large towel, then make up on the way back to the bathroom. Put the clothes and the towel on the bathroom cabinet for Clemens from.
You throw a short, exactly controlled view towards shower.
Can you see through the frosted glass in any case not very much. Nevertheless, characterized Clemens' silhouette from clear. You can guess at least his body - and the rest to your imagination for you.
you swallow easily. The urge to bridge the few yards and just postpone the door of the shower is undeniably there.
suppress and not easy.
Finally, this is Clemens, who is not two feet away from you completely naked in the shower. Clemens, whom you want for so long and for whom you feel about so much. You räusperst up easily.
"I told you n some stuff to wear out down. Towel is just on the doorstep ... ", then you think, hope that your voice has the rushing water drowned.
An unintelligible sound passes from Clemens as a response to your ear. It could be a "thank you" was really sure you are as you but not.
any case, he apparently is still so up and may be understood.
You hear that Clemens now turns the shower. Hurry you do on your way out of the bathroom before he steps out of the shower. The sight you need because now you do not really give too.
You lock the door behind you. Breathe deeply.
If Clemens would not only bring up a constant flow from the concept. And he does not yet even aware of.
It is enough if he's just around the corner.
you hear the flap of the door of the shower. Long massaging your temples for a moment. Feel something like a dull throb. Slowly you realize yet that it is actually in the middle of the night.
And the thought of tomorrow's training brings you a nasty goose bumps already. Do not even think about how you survive the morning shalt at all.
And what Thomas will say what state you and Clemens will appear tomorrow at the stadium.
Just the thought that Clemens will probably get even greater problems because consoles up a little bit. Did he do you think that is deserved. Also, if you wish, of course, he actually nothing wrong.
only way ... a little poetic justice. Yawning or so in style
you doing up eventually at some point on the way into the living room. Go with a few skilled hand movements from your sofa holst, the ceiling of the closet, which otherwise always used Mesut if it is again too late and he's asleep with you.
After all, Clemens now has to sleep somewhere, probably yes. And that he will probably go back to his apartment rather not so much now but you have already understood.
If you honestly really prefer it that way - Clemens know here in South Africa. On your sofa. Boros and not in bed.
Just as you also put the pillow on the sofa, you hear the clatter the bathroom door and next, tapsende steps in the hallway. You look at - and realize Clemens, who remains standing in the doorway.
And the sight in your affairs more than you really like.
The dark shorts sitting dangerously deep, because you're built just a little bit wider than Clemens. The lighter T-shirt, which also acts as something big and look a bit Clemens makes like a little boy.
Undecided Clemens leaning in the doorway, chewing on his lower lip. A few wet strands hang him in the forehead.
Clemens now looks clearly better than a few minutes. His gaze is clear, he seems a bit more awake. Although he still seems a bit shaky to be on his feet.
"I've made the bed ready. You can then immediately lie down ... "mean you finally indicate on the couch, even if you are you pretty sure that Clemens has noticed that in his current condition clearly.
Clemens nodded hesitantly.
"Thanks, Basti ..." he mutters, finally, pushes away from the door frame and comes toward you.
drawn up finally in a big hug. Expressed to you - and you can not help but Clemens also easy to pull up. Breathe deeply.
Enjoy the mixture of Clemens' own smell and your shower gel. You just hope that you will eventually get the chance to get used to this smell right.
internalize Him.
And until then, you just try to be content with what you can get just at the moment.
"... I am really grateful to you, Basti. I know this is not absolute, of course, that you let me sleep here with you. Someone like you I'm not worthy ... yet, "Clemens mumbles close to your ear.
His warm breath touches your ear, so that you need a moment to understand what the other just now has ever said. Slowly you will be the meaning of his words, however, obvious.
Instead of saying something, you reinforce the embrace once again for a brief moment. Then you let Clemens go again, are driving him once through the still-wet hair.
"Come, lie down you, let us sleep now for the first time. We talk tomorrow ... "you mumble, finally, push Clemens clumsily towards sofa. has
because you like the hug as best ever - You are already far too short before, take advantage of the situation. Clemens to pull up and just kiss him senseless, for example.
And at the moment is not what you want. would play apart from the fact that you have no idea whether Clemens want.
"Well, good night ..." you say goodbye you from Clemens, who returned the greeting muttering.
you put out the light, then make up your bedroom on the way to fall, in your bed. Closes die Augen.
Und kannst doch irgendwie nicht einschlafen. Beim besten Willen nicht. Fühlst dich seltsam. Gleichzeitig todmüde und hellwach.
Du ziehst die Decke über dich, weil dich friert, strampelst sie dann doch wieder runter, als dir zu warm wird.
Drehst dich von einer Seite auf die andere, bist innerlich unruhig und gleichzeitig fühlen sich deine Glieder bleischwer an.
Als wäre jede weitere Bewegung eine nicht zumutbare Anstrengung für dich.
turned and you stare up at the back, facing up. To the dark ceiling of your bedroom.
Trying to think of anything.
works so well that you only notice that your bedroom door has just risen when someone clears his throat softly.
"Basti, are you sleeping?" Whispers Clemens in the dark room.
And you had for each other This stupid question is now turned on stupid.
not Clemens. Because you know what relates to Clemens, seems really easy to general tick differently than any other people in the world.
"No ..." you finally answer that is just as quiet as Clemens has put his question, "... what's going on? Do you need something? "
You judge up slowly in your bed, knippst to your bedside lamp.
"Um ... well ... not ... I really ... but I can not sleep ... and I ... I ... well ... maybe ... I can ... well ... with you? "Clemens stutters and you have to really work hard to make sense of the babble be.
As you understand, however, what exactly you just asked Clemens flat, you will be simultaneously hot and cold.
You wonder. Long. And without saying anything.
can you look it seems almost too much time because Clemens in that moment again took the floor: "I'm sorry ... I ... I ... sorry, that was a stupid idea ... I'll move over ..."
Clemens will turn around again when you do finally durchringst to a decision.
After all, why the hell you should get the zulasssen not now? It's damn what you want - and Clemens seems really to want to sleep with you ...
Why So then you should not even do exactly what you really want? Just this once
"Stay here, Clemens, please!", Do you think Clemens now, then, then slides to the side demonstratively.
"Come here!" Ford until you see him on then, smiling gently at Clemens.
The smile is also answered cautiously, as Clemens now submit to you, slips under the covers.
You are the light and almost automatically deleting you stretch out an arm to Clemens. Drag it a little closer to you and you realize how Clemens saying something closer to slip up.
bury your face in his now almost completely dry hair. One of Clemens's arms wrap around you.
"... That's it ..." do you hear Clemens finally mumble some point - you were already on the verge of finally gone to dawn.
But now you have to ask very simple.
"... What?" You growl softly, you were really shortly before falling asleep.
Clemens pushes himself a little closer to you, before he answers.
"This is what was missing. With Boro ... This feeling ... here ... "replied Clemens finally quite slow, apparently also just before Wegpennen.
And you - you can knock the heart, the Clemens' trigger words with you, just do not suppress. And if you're honest, you do not even want that.
Not at this moment.
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