Black / White Paper III 9.11
part: 09
Warnings: sap, lemon
Content: Tijo has become aware that he has a very specific interest in Sasha and pursued it as well. But he has not put all the cards on the table ...
Title:
Black / White Paper III
part: 09 / 11
Author: Nanuk Dain
e-mail: nanukdain@gmx.net
Rating: MA
Warnings: sap, lemon
Claimer: What's there to say? All mine, as always.
Comment: I can only times again apologize that it took so long for me to sign me again. I just got my essay phase-in the university and should therefore not actually write in my stories ... * Cough *... My PC is working again, fortunately, so I can write again. Namely English keyboards have the disadvantage that they have no umlauts or ß. That makes every German text to read very ugly, I've found. And I want so terribly slow at typing ... Sorry that this chapter is not as long as the previous one, but do not worry that changes in the next few chapters again ^ ^
Content: Tijo has become aware that he is a very specific is interested in Sasha. But he has not put all the cards on the table ...
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The air was not as cold as it was a few days, the wind felt nice and I enjoyed every kilometer that I lay back. The morning route to work was pure relaxation for my nerves. Although last night I was actually been so tired that I would have to sleep like a rock, I had lain awake half the night. It was not simply been able to bring my wandering thoughts to silence. Again and again, my Saturday night and Sunday were going through your mind, I tried to analyze what happened was.
The essence of a sleepless night, was that I admitted that I wanted to Sasha. With skin and hair. The thought of meeting the guys for grilling, however, made me nervous because I knew that Sasha would be there and I was not sure how I should behave. There were two different things, knowing that I wanted to Sasha, or telling people around me. And although I
because of Sasha's response to me was actually assume that he was not averse, so I was still not entirely sure what he wanted. All day Sunday on Sascha had towards me does not really behave differently than usual for the other was in our motorcycle group have looked as if was nothing between me and him happened. But in my eyes had changed a lot. The fact that Sasha had been no signs that he shared this feeling, had unsettled me.
The traffic light at the end of the road jumped to red, I went off the accelerator and let me roll up to the stop line. I took his hands from the handlebars, I stretched and balanced the engine between the legs. A faint smile lay on my lips as I thought about how Sasha had changed when his door was shut and locked. I had hardly touched him in clear view to its being neutral mask had fallen from him, as had He waited only to the fact that I closed a step on him.
When I was thinking that, I realized that I myself, since we had left the breakfast room, Sascha behave towards no different had when I had done it before. I had me constantly aware of others who were with us the way and which I sometimes predict an excellent observation. Joshua and Mara were among the people, of which I was fairly sure that, even if they did not know for sure, but at least suspected that Sasha and I circled around each other in clear interest. Still, it was for me a huge difference if they result only small signs of suspected or we submitted them tangible evidence. Admittedly, I had so
Sascha over the course of Sunday, nor a change in behavior on the day as he put to me. I suddenly had the impression that I had with my insecurity and caution Sasha evoked neutral appearance. I knew already that he was dealing with people rather cautious and reserved when it comes to things was that had him wichitg. I came not to umhing hope that I fell into this category.
A short horns behind me made me aware that the light was turned skipped. I grabbed the driver, drove off and raised his hand in apology for the driver behind me. The wind tugged at my nice clothes and my hair, which looked out on the helmet. At the moment I felt good, even if caught in a mood between tension, nervousness and anticipation.
Sascha When I said yesterday evening that I was looking forward to seeing him, that was not just a phrase. I felt this certain queasy feeling in my stomach that I had not seen since Michelle, and asked me how I should only bring this incredibly long day behind me.
I went from the gas and turned into the entrance to the courtyard, where was our studio. Slowly I went to my ancestral park and turned off my machine. One moment was I sit still, I took the helmet from his head and ran my hand through the loose hair. Without that I was aware, I let out a small sigh of breath. How should I behave just tonight? Jamilio would watch me closely, which I was sure. He was already assumed that I give him something concealed in relation to Sasha, and after his call yesterday for the most inconvenient time his curiosity was aroused at the same rate as his distrust. He would definitely not want to talk with me, and I would try to avoid deliberately.
"You have similarity to an ancient thinker statue."
I woke from my thoughts and turned my Face to the voice. Marieh standing next to me, a coffee cup made of cardboard in his hand and a questioning look on her face. Her deep black painted eyes looked at me closely, then slowly spread a knowing smile on her lips painted black as well. I was sure that I did not liked that smile.
"Good morning to you too." I got off the machine and walked past her. For a moment I enjoyed the feeling of them tower over nearly two heads. After a moment I heard the muffled sound of their heavy boots behind.
"You've done it again!" I heard her say behind me. I could stop just short, I winced whether the knowing, almost triumphant tone in her voice.
"What are you talking about please." As always, if I had to do with Marieh and their curiosity, I preferred to make me stupid and ignorant.
"I beg you, Tijo discredit your own intelligence not." From the corner of my eye I watched as she shook her head.
We approached the front door and I stayed her like a gentleman, but I did not answer. They went to anything that had happened between Sasha and me. The
saw it differently. "Denial is pointless, my friend. Your face has betrayed you. "
"And what will be the contact for an expression?" A counter-question, no answer.
you gave me a dubious look over her shoulder as she walked up the stairs. "You had a twinkle in his eyes and the train of a suppressed smile on his lips, as you there minding my own have been sitting on your motorcycle. And I know that you were traveling on the weekend with Sascha. Since it is not difficult, one and one zusammenzuzählen. "
you pulled her key from one of the many pockets on her pants and closed the door to the studio. We were the first ones arrived, the office was still deserted. Marieh went to her desk, her black jacket hung with the multiple lacing on the back of her chair and put her bag on the seat. If I had thought that they would let off so easy on the topic, I was wrong. I should have known better.
You left me barely enough time to go to Stefan's and my office and to store my leather jacket because it was already in the doorway and leaned against the frame.
"I'm assuming that you're closer to Sascha." Noticed she was alert and his eyes fixed on me. I ignored it and instead grabbed from my laptop.
"From me, then I pull up everything you individually from the nose." Her resolute face told me that it was up to do just that. "What have you done? Where were you on the weekend? "
such innocent questions with such ambiguous intention. Marieh, a master of conversation. I sighed with resignation and decided to give her at least a few answers.
"We have made friends with some of Sascha a motorcycle tour through the Rheingau."
"Oh, beautiful! Take me next time also, yes? "She clapped her hands enthusiastically in briefly. At that moment she reminded me of a small Girl, not a twenty-four year old woman who had a sly old dog.
"What have you seen since you?" She seemed to have sincere interest in the tour. I went to Teekücke and began to put on our ubiquitous coffee. Marieh followed me and sat on the work surface next to the coffee machine.
"We looked at other Rudesheim are driven to the Niederwald monument with the car and stayed in an old castle. Sunday we drove back with some intermediate stops again. "I told her while I cup for him, Valentin, Yannick, Marieh and made me ready.
"That sounds totally great. Why have you not brought me to? "She complained with an exaggerated trembling pout.
I had to smile. "Do not you have a motorcycle?"
She snorted. "No, you know. But I could even sit behind you. "
" This is Sasha's place already. "I said lightly, without having given me the meaning of the words thoughts.
"Oh. Is that so? "Marieh gave me a sardonic, but attentive glance, a half smile on his lips.
"You know what I mean." I made a dismissive gesture.
"Certainly. As has probably been your subconscious mind, the guide over your mouth. "The smile widened and took on an almost threatening curious train. "But we come back to the topic."
"You mean the trip?" I asked in a last attempt to distract them.
"You insult your own intelligence once again, Tijo. You know perfectly well that I talk about you and Sascha. "She shook her head disapprovingly. "I remember you said something to stay on. Lead times but the more detail from. "
I gave her a wry glance. "Yes, sure. This would have you probably like to use. "
" No answer an answer, you know "you smiled at me with her most innocent expression. "You gave me so therefore I have said, I wanted to know."
"All right, then yes you need not continue to ask." I murmured in her direction. Anyone else would have left me with so much unkindness in peace, but unfortunately Marieh could not so easily deterred.
"Yes. I want details. "
" That you will not get it. "
" What you admit that there are details. "She grinned at me triumphantly.
Rarely I wanted so much as now, that come of any of our colleagues in the studio and me out of this predicament would. But I had no luck. "I admit nothing."
"Come on, Tijo, let's not hang out the tough guy. You should know that I am honestly happy for you and I already feel that you belong together with Sascha. "She looked at me seriously and I knew she meant every word exactly.
I sighed softly. "For you and your curiosity about the whole thing is much easier than for me and my mind."
"I know that. So I ask you yes, because otherwise everything would you zerdenken without ever to take a step. "She smiled at me warmly and patted me on the arm. "So what has changed between you?"
I turned around and leaned back against the work surface. "If you want to have a precise moment, then that may well have been the one in the Sascha rose to me in the shower."
Marieh I took one look and grin had given their stunned facial expression. I enjoyed their silence to the full. This happened rarely cordial with her.
A few times it worked without a word of mouth and then she seemed to regain her voice. "He has what?"
"You have heard it. I will not repeat it. "
" Wow, he's really brave. "She whistled briefly through his teeth. Then a thought seemed to come and she frowned. "How much you had been drinking?"
I cleared my throat briefly. "More than a beer. But in the morning I was sober. "
" please do not tell that you've sneaked out again. "The disapproval in her voice was nearly tangible.
"No, I did not. When I woke up, Sasha was already awake. "I knew I threw her only small chunks and drove it to the other questions. I could not overcome, however, tell me everything from simple.
"To you it is really fun, let me fidget or" I just grinned in response. "So what happened when you found that you woke up with him in a bed up? Besides demand, it was in a unique position? "
I could not help think how had my bare thighs felt on his feet when I woke up and found was that I was naked and had me curled up to him. I felt my cheeks get hot. I did not think that Marieh take me with their questions to actually blush could. "As we woke up is none."
Instead of being outraged or hurt, Marieh began to laugh. "Oh my goodness, Tijo! You have become red and you want to answer me, that I says it all. "
After a few moments she began again. "So now you're together?"
Good question. I took a deep breath and let the air out with a heavy sigh. "I do not know."
"What, you do not know? You were together all day Sunday, there can be expected but that you have clarified, as will make you want. "
" Theoretically like are you are right, but practically we have talked about so what not. In addition, we were traveling in a group. "I knew saying that those were just excuses. Had I really wanted, I would have had more than enough opportunities to talk to Sasha. But I had not even tried.
"And how did you behave yourselves from others?"
"Normal." The coffee was long gone by, but I made no move to pour me a cup.
"So, as if nothing had happened." Her eyes told me what she thought of it.
"Yes. Do you think I feel the need, the same dedicate the whole group? "My voice had become somewhat sharper.
"Well, obviously not, right?" Marieh really had a thick skin against my moods. "Have you talked to at least the Tour with Sasha?"
"Not really." As explained, it seemed as if I had behaved myself on Sunday fundamentally wrong. Even for me it looked like I had Sascha left in uncertainty. But that I had not really, if one thought about my spontaneous action at his home.
"So he did not know what you think or want?"
"Well ..." I had to clear my throat briefly. "Yeah, I've done quite well ..." One eyebrow
wandered into the air. "How?"
"Well ... No sooner was his front door had fallen, I have ... You know. And if Jamilio had not called, we would certainly ... "I did not like it that I did not even finish it, even to mention that I was attacked in principle about him. And it was definitely been my initiative.
"Oh."
"What 'oh'?" It annoyed me her answer.
"Well, you were definitely clear." She gestured the direction of the coffee machine. "Would you be so kind and make me some coffee?"
"Sure." I was glad to have something to do, even if I did Marieh a favor.
"Do you really was, Sascha want from you?" She was watching me nachenklich.
I shrugged my shoulders. "When I was sure I would probably not break your head. It is hard to read. Sometimes I'm sure he wants more from me, and then it behaves normally again so that I'm sure you have deceived me. "
" What do you want? "They had this damned Talent to make always the right questions when you do not hear it wanted.
"Damn, Marieh, I do not know yet!" With a clatter, I dropped the spoon with which I had just stirred her coffee. I had answered louder and harsher than I had intended, for she had touched a sore spot. After a moment I took the spoon again and glanced in her direction. "Sorry."
But she only smiled at me sympathetically and poked me lightly in the side. "No problem. I can imagine that this is not exactly easy. "
" That is still no Reason to growl at you. "I took a deep breath.
"Have you actually talked to Jamilio times now?" She took with a grateful smile, contrary to the coffee, which I handed to her.
I winced slightly. Another sore point. "Yes. But I have the vague feeling that this will change soon. Jamilio knows me well enough to be able to read very small characters. And since I am this evening with him, the guys meet for barbecues and Sasha, he will probably see many of these small signs that he wants to discuss with me. "
" I also think that you should talk to Jamilio. Nich just because your relationship with Sasha. When any is the out come of the photos and then you are decidedly at a disadvantage if you told him not by you of this. "
" If the pictures ever comes out, then I have a lot of other problems. "I said softly, gave her a long, portentous look.
"You can say." She paused, then looked at me with eyes full of remorse over the rim of the cup. "I'm sorry that I do in such a tricky situation had brought."
I shook my head and stroked her shoulder. "First, it is not your fault, because it was my decision to accept your proposal. And secondly, would not your idea Sascha I never met. So do not worry. "
She smiled. "You really like him, right?"
I gave her a look, then I nodded without saying anything.
*** tbc
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