Black / White Paper IV 3.11
part: 03
Warnings: sap, lemon
Content: Tijo is finite met with Sasha, but so far, not all problems solved. On the contrary, it is still quite new to do ...
Title:
Black / White Paper IV
part: 03 / 11
Author: Nanuk Dain
e-mail: nanukdain@gmx.net
Rating: MA
Warnings: sap, lemon
Claimer: Ma-ha-ha -ha-Heine! For iiiiiiiiiiiimmer! * Arie * smashes
Comment: And Part 3 follows immediately. I hope you still enjoy reading, even though I still need until I post something new ... * Sigh * some things just never change ...
Content: Tijo is finite met with Sasha, but so far have been solved all problems. On the contrary, it is still quite new to do ...
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"The truth Tijo. I want the truth. "
Jamilio looked at me with a serious look crossed his arms over his chest and a determined train around the mouth, which gave me to understand that I would not get out of here before I had not spoken. I seuftze softly. I had never been able to prevail over Jamilio if he really wanted to know something. And now he was just in this mood. He had asked me only silence in the Wohung, had offered me a coffee and waited until I had sat down. Now he gave me a penetrating glance and leaned against the work surface, his own coffee cup in hand. "Well, begin."
"I know not quite know how. "I confessed.
"You wear Sasha sweater, Tijo," he noted with a dry tone, "this says a lot."
I looked down at me and reminded me that I had indeed borrowed Sasha's green sweatshirt, because had gotten my shirt, lavender oil. I was surprised that Jamilio recognized the sweatshirt as Sasha, but he had always had an excellent observation. And besides, the sweatshirt was one of Sasha's favorite part, he wore it often and it was not too far-fetched that even Jamilio was noticed.
I saw in my coffee cup and wrinkled his brow thoughtfully. How should I ? Start Where should I start? Exactly what I wanted to tell him about? I took a sip, as if to strengthen me, I looked up and watched over Jamilio. He knew what it was. I could read it in his eyes, but at the same time, I realized that he would not come to meet me. He wanted me to that statement, I told him. I took a deep breath and said the first thing that came to mind.
"I'm with Sasha together." I am surprised even with such open terms. I kept his eyes fixed on my best friend and tense waiting for his reaction.
He was silent a moment, then nodded slightly. "I can not say that surprises me that. "
Well, I had already suspected that he suspected something. However, as quietly that he would react, I had not expected. I looked at him dumbfounded and prevented just that I stopped the mouth open. "Ah."
"I would like to hear even more." Jamilio replied to my very witty response before he took a sip of his coffee. "How long have you been together?"
"Um ..." I took a moment to catch me. I ran a hand through his hair, and cleared my throat before I saw him again. "Officially, since Monday."
"Officially. Aha. "Jamilio eyed me with a raised eyebrow across the edge of the cup. "And unofficially?"
I turned back to my cup. "For quite some time. But we ... we were not together. "
" Tijo, you are precisely calibrated for months around each other. "Jamilio turned soberly. "And I told you already more than once."
"Yes, I know." I pressed his lips together and nodded. I remembered only too well.
"In snowboarding holiday last year, what happened?" Jamilio looked at me intently. "I know that something happened and I'm sure it has something to do with Sasha. But you would never talk about it. "
I would have known that he would put it. I nibbled on my bottom lip, wondering what to say. Marieh voice in my head was that this was the perfect opportunity to tell Jamilio everything from my first intimate contact with Sasha, to the photos. I studiously ignored them.
"Yes, it is what happened between us." I began hesitantly. "After you went to the disco, are Sasha and I went back to the hotel. We have had a snowball fight, and were soaked, Sasha was to be considerably more drunk than me and I brought him to his room. We ... "I stopped and decided
finally let the photos for the time being mentioned. "I do not know who started from us, maybe we were both there, at least we have ended up in bed."
Jamilio looked at me completely unmoved. Obviously, this news did not surprise him too much. "And then?"
"Well, I woke up the next morning before Sasha. I panicked and went back to my room. At breakfast, then came out that Sascha went blank and could not remember anything, what happened to the bar. "I paused a moment, long and forced me to look into the eyes Jamilio. "I then told him nothing of the night told."
"Next," he only asked, holding still the view of myself addressed. "Then why did you tried so adamantly to come back together with Michelle? Did you want to show you something? "
" No! Yes ... "I shrugged. "Maybe."
"But it did not work, right?" He asked further, but now his voice was warm. "When we came to this ice skating colleagues Sascha and you have done so,'d be as her, there was not all just for show, right? Look at me, Tijo. "
I hesitated a moment, then I looked over at him. Jamilio leaned against the dresser, obliquely placed the cup in one hand and his head slightly. "What happened?"
"Like you said, we are around each other precisely calibrated. Michelle was not that important anymore, as they should have been, but you know. "I made a vague gesture with my left arm. "Sascha and I ... we were always drawn back together. Like moths to light. Last weekend, we are on a motorcycle tour of Sasha's friends parade, and that evening we are back in bed. Monday After grilling in the park, then we have finally spoken plain text. "
" Why did not you talk to me about it? "asked seriously Jamilio.
"I did not know how to deal with the situation. How would you handle it. Sascha is after all not only my friend, he is one of the boys and I did not know ... "I hesitated.
"I saw you with him, Tijo. I have seen you, as their presence at loggerheads. "Returned Jamilio and looked into my eyes. "I knew long ago that you had up in love with him."
I swallowed, bit my lip and forced me to look away. "So it okay for you that we are together? "
" We know each other for over twenty years, Tijolito. "he said with a reproachful look. "You should know me well enough to get you the answer yourself."
I looked down and nodded slowly. He was right, I should have known that I could talk to him about Sasha that he would not condemn me. In all the time in which I had not been sure how I got to Sascha, Jamilio had supported me, even without knowing exactly what it was.
"How will you behave in front of you today guys?" Jamilio looked at me a moment suspicious at. "But hopefully not as good as if nothing happened?"
I shook my head. "No, we will not hide."
"Good." He nodded. I knew the importance of honesty was Jamilio. to conceal a relationship he would never come to mind.
"What do you think, how will they react?" I asked around again and chewed on my lip.
He shrugged his shoulders. "I can also tell you exactly. That you will probably have to try. "
" This afternoon I will get even the opportunity. "I said just dry.
"Do not be so negative from the outset, Tijo. Trust the guys, they will not leave you hanging. We are your friends, not some superficial acquaintances. "Jamilio put his cup in the sink, then he turned back to me. "You might have something to nibble on it, but in the end they are behind you. You should know about. "
" I know. "I said softly and drank my last sip of coffee. I also put my cup in the sink and was grateful for the job, so I had to say. Unfortunately, this did not work forever, and eventually I had to turn back to Jamilio.
"I'm sorry I was so suspicious." I said honestly, looking at him openly. "I have more quarreled with myself than with any others, and now I expect resistance from all sides. Even though I know that is not true. "
Jamilio nodded slightly. "I know you, Tijo, I know how you react when you feel cornered. But do not do this to the people around you out, because most of you do anything bad. "
I remained silent and just nodded to confirm. I knew he was right, but that made it any easier to control my suspicion.
"And you should talk to Michelle. She has a right to know what's going on between you and Sascha. "Jamilio held my gaze. "And indeed they should learn it from you or from Sascha and not by any slanderer. Because they know it will. The fact that your relationship will go through the rumor mill, you know also determines itself "
I sighed softly. "I know, I know."
"Really, Tijo, you've hurt her enough already. Do not let this get even humiliation. She did not deserve, for what has developed between you and Sasha was not clear and it has not caused it. "He frowned. "I'm not only yours, but also their friend. I do not see either of you unhappy. "
I just nodded in silence. Jamilio looked me some serious moments, but said nothing. Then he pushed off from the work surface. "How about breakfast?"
I took a moment to process the change of topic, I lächtelte him gratefully. A little normalcy after this conversation was just what I needed. "Although I have had breakfast already, but who am I that I would refuse a second breakfast."
"Good." Jamilio grinned at me suddenly wide. "Then do We look at your wonderful omelets. You know where everything is. "
I laughed, but then I went to the fridge. "Slave driver."
"But certainly. You know me. "
It was good to know that nothing had changed, even though things had changed so much, I thought as I began to touch the omelets. We talked at ease about everything and I relaxed with every moment more. Jamilio really knew me very well, he had known that a common breakfast as we had had it for so many times, I was more sure of his support than a hundred words.
At half past eleven I said goodbye to home and then again to go to Sasha. Jamilio brought me to the door and grinned slightly. "We see two. Sascha and greet me. "
I laughed slightly and nodded. "I will."
***
We drove into the parking lot and the guys could have seen from a distance. They stood in a round, in addition to Alex's Mazda, the sports ashes on the floor at her feet. When we had parked and I put down the helmet, Mario greeted us with a broad grin. "Well, you've made together again early morning exercise, when I called?"
I threw a Sascha quick look, then I said simply, "Yes."
Mario
That seemed to bring out the concept. He pulled the surprised eyebrows, but then he grinned and went into it. "Do you do this every Saturday?"
He thought apparently that I raised him, but I did not think this way out, he offered me unconsciously to accept. We had to tell the guys anyway, since we could also do just as well now. "Not only on Saturdays."
"What, even on Sundays," he said, laughing.
"Even during the week." Sascha mixed in, and I knew he understood what I was doing. He was still sitting behind me on the machine and made no move to dismount. His right arm was demonstratively at my center, in the left hand he held his helmet in which he had put the gloves.
"man, and you are active." Micah grinned as well, he understood the whole as a joke. I glanced at Jamilio, who stood silently beside Mario and watched me closely. He caught my eye and nodded almost imperceptibly, to tell me that he was behind me, no matter what I would do now. This small gesture, I felt incredibly good, because I was still not entirely sure how the guys would react.
"We have very good physical condition." Sascha replied and I could hear the grin in his voice. His hand passed slowly over my stomach.
"How long have you trained already?" Mario gave us a bemused look. "Regular exercise is there since last Monday." "How much stamina does not come from nowhere."
I replied, and looked seriously into his eyes. Mario frowned slightly, he understood that we are not talking in jest. I let my eyes wander from one to another. Michael and Alex still had not understood what it was, Jamilio us just watched in silence.
"And as you train day," said Mario after a few seconds and looked at us with a look that contained an interesting mixture of skepticism, disbelief, and foreboding.
"Oh, it depends." Sasha's laid a hand on my chin and I followed the light pressure and turn my head until he could kiss me on the mouth. I involuntarily closed his eyes and leaned against him, even if the contact of our lips was short, no more than a fleeting touch.
He let go of my chin and I saw his little smile before I turned to the boys. Sasha's voice was deeper than he said, "But it's always very intense."
For a moment there was dead silence.
"No, honestly now, "asked Alex dumbfounded and stared at us as if we were making fun of him. Michael did not look better, his mouth was open and he looked as if someone poured a bucket of cold water over his head. Mario had wrinkled his forehead, his eyes fixed on us and I could see that it worked in his head. He did not seem as surprised as Alex and Micah, and I did not know what to make of it.
suddenly saw Alex frantically in all directions around.
"What?" Said Micha irritates him.
"Where is he?" Alex watched us intently, then looked around again.
"Who?" Sasha asked, his voice made me know that he just confused about Alex's behavior as I was.
"Your colleague," he replied in a tone that hinted how foolish he found the issue. "Somewhere around but the creeps, right?"
"my colleague." Sasha was still apparently not clear to what Alex was talking about.
"Well, by the type of ice rink." Alex snorted, annoyed. "The wanted to show her."
heard laughing behind me I Sascha moment, then said firmly, "There are no colleagues here, want to demonstrate we are, Alex."
Alex paused in his search, turning us gradually to the view. "What do you mean?"
I heard Sasha softly behind with sigh, then I could feel his right arm wrapped around my middle again and he took me lightly dressed. "Tijo and I are together, Alex. No mate, do not show, not a game. "
It seemed Alex speechless, he stared at us again and I felt like a nasty knot formed in my stomach. Maybe the guys were not quite as open and tolerant as Jamilio had thought. When he would feel my discomfort, to Sascha strengthened the grip of his arm and pressed me in my back.
"And this is since Monday, yes?" Said Mario, the view is still serious and the front folded.
I looked at him and nodded.
"Aha." Mario said no more and I could not read what he thought. Maybe that was the conversation not such a good idea. Alex stared at us now, not more, but he was not caught as he had a hundred percent again. Michael seemed to be caught by surprise was always something, but not as negative as Alex. Jamilio just stood there and watched us in silence, he apparently thought it better if we clarified that alone with the other guys.
"Come on, let swim's go. "Micha said suddenly and threw me and Sascha, a brief, almost imperceptible smile. "We did not even come here to out there standing around."
His proposal broke the strange mood that had settled over us. Alex looked at Michael, then he broke away from his rigid and reached for his pocket. "Good idea. Let's go. "
Sascha let go of me and got down, helmet in hand. I followed his example, we went together with the boys to the entrance. Alex and Michael had taken place, Sasha ran alongside Mario and Jamilio waited until I was beside him. He looked at me and smiled. He was happy with my decision to talk with the guys.
"I have the feeling that this is not over." I said softly, looking pointedly at Alex.
"Yes, he probably needs a little while." Jamilio agreed with me. "But you are on the right track. Alex will get used to the time already on it. You know him. "
I nodded, still skeptical. "I hope that you keep right."
We entered the foyer when Alex and Michael have already bought their entrance marks. Mario and Sasha were still standing beside the cash register and Jamilio and I asked them to us.
"Great, I'm looking forward to the total slide," I heard Alex said as we queuing at the ticket office to buy our entry stamps.
"Me too. Finally back. "Replied Michelle, who was standing beside him, also grinning.
"Scales." Mario said, suppressing a smile visible. Michael of course, immediately jumped on Mario's provocation and I watched with a grin, as a debate 'asks what age what behavior' of evolved around. Mario had known exactly what he would do with his comment, I thought to myself, and a look to Jamilio told me that he was thinking exactly the same. It was good that everything seemed to be so, as always, despite my and Sasha's notice.
I looked at Sasha, who was standing next to me, Alex and Mario watched and shook his head with an amused Grinesn. I smiled at him and felt his hand on my sides, from behind as he looked over my shoulder as I paid for both of us. I enjoyed the light stroking of his fingers as well as the fact that we had to do not hide.
We entered the field together with the dressing rooms and looked for cabs. With regret, I saw Sascha in a door, a piece away from me. I got dressed and looked forward to him at once to admire only in swimming trunks, because I knew only too well how sexy he looked in it. Of course I was also aware that I in my black swimming shorts also made a good impression and that I just could Sascha drive you crazy as me.
After a few minutes I left the cabin and looked for a locker to include my clothes and my backpack. I was just about to hang the ironing when I felt hands on my sides and heard a purring beside my right ear.
"You look good enough to eat, you know that?" Sasha whispered to me and stayed behind me to stand until I had packed all my things.
I chuckled in reply. As soon as I closed the locker, turned to Sasha and leaned with his back against the metal. "You're not bad. On the contrary, very attractive ... "I looked at him pointedly
and enjoyed every bit of skin, I could see. I put my hands on his hips, just above the waistband of his dark green swim shorts. His pale skin was a stark contrast to my dark, and I thought it was beautiful to see. I let my hands wander to his shoulders, then I buried my fingers in his hair and took Sasha to me for me to get a kiss. I felt his hands and lay down by my side and he came towards me.
"That's more than I wanted to know." I heard Mario's voice and let go of Sasha, for me to turn to the source of the voice. Mario looked at us with a skeptical look and I felt the uneasy queasy feeling in my stomach up again. I got ready for a Gegenagriff as Sascha answered already.
"Oh, you have to sit and watch us not do that. But we'll be happy to explain the details. "Sasha's voice was amused, and when I turned to him, I saw a smile on his lips. Irritated, I just wrinkled his forehead, but when I looked back to Mario, I noticed that he had a well-hidden grin on his face. He pulled on us, just as he had always done, I realized at once. And I had not noticed because I automatically Sideswipe had expected. Sasha had understood Marios allusion and now that I also did, I noticed that Sasha's attitude to what was before relax, his hands were still on my side and his face was impish.
Jamilio was right, I could not be so negative. The guys would not attack us from behind, that was not her style, if they had a problem with us, they would take the matter open. I was hoping anyway, especially in relation to Alex.
"Thank you, Sasha, very nice of you, but I do not use the statement." Mario grinned openly now. "Are you coming, or do you need a moment alone?"
Sasha laughed. "Oh, a moment alone ..."
"You have dirty thoughts, my friend." Mario said, shaking his head theatrically. "Let them not come to my innocent ears. I'm like to take to the water. "
He turned with a smile and disappeared in the direction of the showers. I watched him.
"Do not worry so much, Tijo." Sascha was serious and kissed me lightly on the temple. "Mario has no problem with us. I have just spoken to him and he said he already had thought of something in that direction. "
I leaned into his touch and nodded slowly. "Do I'm sorry, I always expect the worst. "
" I can understand you, these guys are my friends. But you know them a lot longer than me and I know what it would mean to lose them. "He took a step closer to me and pulled me into a gentle embrace. "But it look so far it's gone surprisingly well."
"Except Alex." I commented dryly.
"Except Alex." Sasha's fingers brushed me slowly and almost calm down your spine. "But that is all right in themselves too. Give him some time, I think we have just thrown it really totally off track. "
"Hm"
"Come, let us go into the water." Sascha let go of me and stepped back. "The others are probably already finished, and we do not want that they start without us."
"I'm concerned." I agreed and watched as Sasha himself with practiced movements, the hair with one of his leather belts in a pony tail zurüchband. It reminded me that I had lost my hair tie in meinerm backpack.
"I have too." I said, pointing to Sasha's braid. I turned to my locker and was open, I felt in my hands Sasha Hair.
"Wait." Sascha sparked a second leather strap from his wrist. With gentle but quick movements, he gathered my hair in a ponytail and tied the cord around it. He just kissed me on the shoulder, then he stepped back and grinned at me.
"So Problem solved. "He turned to go. "Are you coming?"
a moment I was still in progress. I let my hand wander to the neck and felt for the tape in my hair. Somehow there was something very intimate, because this fad with the leather straps were so much a part of Sasha, it was almost a caress, already, the two long ends of the leather on my back to feel. I smiled to myself, I followed my friend.
***
I let my head fall on the edge of the hot tub and closed his eyes. I took a deep breath, let me from the warmth of the water and the massaging air bubbles lull. That was a strange day, the atmosphere between the boys and Sascha and I was not directly tense, but charged with something that caused a certain tension. Mario and Jamilio behaved as always, they both had quite obviously not a problem seemed to us as a couple and Micha with each additional hour more to get used to the idea.
But Alex did not seem like he should behave towards us. He laughed and joked as usual, but I had noticed that he looked furtively over and gave us a certain distance. Sascha and I had not very much different behavior than usual, only here and there, had we allowed contact, we had previously suppressed. A hand in the back when we were together, a hug when we were slipped together, a caress on the arm under water. Nothing unusual, nothing that could bring the boys in embarrassment. Just as I had also behave as if I had still been with Michelle and we had been swimming with the boys. Nevertheless, Alex seemed in our Proximity to feel unwell.
I heard someone climbed the stairs to the hot tub and opened the eyes to see who it was. I saw Alex, who looked at me not, he could only silence on the other side of the whirlpool sink into the water refused to back and closed his eyes. I studied him a moment, then I fell back his head again.
could not really go so on. I had to talk to Alex plain text would otherwise this strange feeling between us become a serious problem. I was not willing to let me cut from him, especially not since he was apparently the only one in our group who did not could arrange with the fact that Sasha and I were together. I wondered how I was all anprechen most sense, because I was interested in creating such discord in the world and not get into a fight with Alex. We sometimes had our problems with each other and had Jamilio us in the past more than ever need to disconnect, because we have not been able to discuss, without us shouting at some point. And this was too important that I wanted to let degenerate into an argument.
"You have a problem with Sascha and me as a couple, right?" I asked for simple. The direct path was sometimes even the best. I was glad that the pool to ourselves had, because I was not particularly keen on listeners.
Alex snorted. He had been waiting anscheined that I would say something. "You have to admit, your opening came from the blue. I just did not expect it. "
" Well, would you and Mario Jamilio widersrpechen there. "I remarked tartly. His way of bothered me, I did not want to talk nice mannered and with him when he turned on me from the side.
"Please what?" Now he sounded genuinely surprised.
I opened my eyes and raised his head to be able to watch it. Alex sat bolt straight on the other side of the spa, looking at me on, frowning. "They have already noticed it long ago. Sascha and I circle around each other for months, Alex. Even in a snowboarding holiday. Just you and Micah, you have simply not noticed. "
" For nearly half a year already, "he said fassunglos and stared at me with his mouth open. "This goes for almost half a year already?"
I nodded wordlessly.
Did "something to her all the time what each other had? You gave us half a year provided does what? "
" No, we have not. "I stifled the anger caused by his words forced and me to remain objective. "The Tension was there, even the odd incident, but we are really only since Monday together. "
Alex paused, looked at me but still with a frown. I said nothing and kept his eyes fixed only. When this is supposed to be a contest to see who would look away first, then he would be. After a minute he actually lowered his eyes and stared at the moving water surface to the constantly rising bubbles. "I do not understand."
"What?"
"I mean ... Why you and Sasha? You all both so ... "he paused, apparently he was looking for the perfect word. He looked up again and made a vague gesture with one hand before he dropped it back into the water.
"So what, Alex?" I tried not to sound as menacing as I would have done the most. My shoulders were tense and I held Alex in my eyes and saw how he swallowed shortly.
"Well, you are so ... how shall I say, so masculine, just. "He felt uneasy. "You are both so great at all and poofy, so right guys up."
"We also do not think in stereotypes, what, Alex?" I said just let the sarcasm and clearly resonate in my voice.
"What shall I say because otherwise if you please? Until recently, you were still falls head over heels in Michelle - and he also noted in passing - and now you're standing at a time on him? He is probably the complete opposite of what one can imagine to Michelle. "Alex's voice was low, but angry and uncomprehending. "He's a guy, damn it!"
"I know, Alex." My patience decreased markedly.
"When did you last because so? When Sascha has so changed? "He made a jerky motion with one hand and stared at me, still angry.
"We have not changed Alex. "I said with an annoyed sigh and struggled to remain calm and not to approach him. "We have no other people have become. Sascha and I are more than friends, but that does not mean that things will change in our relationship with you. "
" Oh yes, "he snapped at me. "You are together, Tijo how the hell is going to change anything there?"
"With Michelle but you had no problem, Alex." I said pointedly. "Can it be that you only so exciting, because Sasha and I are both men?"
"Michelle was not part of our young group! But Sascha on, this is my problem! "Alex was leaning forward, glaring at me. "And true, I do not understand! You were both together with Michelle and you are both guys! "
" Nobody has asked that you understand it, Alex! You shall only accept "I said fiercely, forcing me to keep my quiet voice. "Do not be so damn prudish and intolerant"
Alex got up and looked at me annoyed. "I'm going again in the whirlpool."
"Do it" He left the Jacuzzi and I saw him after dark, until he disappeared in the vortex pool. So much for rational discussion, without dispute. It would probably more than just take a while, Alex had to get used to us.
*** tbc
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